For some silly reason unknown to myself I have this urge to adopt again. I honestly do not know what has brought this on. As I said in my interview with Angie DH will run a mile if I mention it to him….. So the question to ask is why do I want to adopt again? Well I honestly can not give a compelling answer that will convince DH. My reasons start off with me having this HUGE need to adopt. To there being so many kids out there that need homes so why not our home, to me just wanting more kids.

Yes I know I have a soon to be 18 year old who should have cured me from wanting more kids, yes I have a soon to be 16 year old who has given me so few problems he is a true Angel. Yes I have a3 year old who is so stubborn it is scary. Yes I have a 17 month old who is going into her terrible 2’s & boy can she trough a tantrum. & even with all of this I still want more kids I must be stark raving nuts….

None of our adoptions have been easy, Steffy’s adoptions is only going to be finalised at the end of January.

I was thinking(hoping) about fetching our new baby around the end of March…holy hell I am nuts…This will only happen if I contact the social worker in the next few weeks to let her know we are looking to adopt & send her all the docs she needs again including a photographic portfolio. Also my adoption timeline is slowly coming to an end as once you hit 40 they do not really like letting you adopt & I am nearly 38.

So how do I explain to DH I would like to adopt again how do I convince him to do it again?

Its still really hot here I feel as if I am going to melt..

Sunday News on Benjamin
A prayer vigil.

(Dec 23, 2007) -

Hello beloved friends



Today Benjamin is doing a little better. In the evening he developed a fever which the doctors were anticipating and began immediate treatment with IV antibiotics. He is able to swallow liquids if you syringe them into his swollen mouth and is rational enough to understand that the more he drinks the faster he will heal so he always says he will have "just one more" when he has reached his limit.



He is very tired but insists on hearing all the news from home and is excited to hear that we have decorated the house for Christmas, thanks to the tireless and wonderful efforts of the Spessert family (visiting us for 2 weeks over Christmas). We promised Ben the decorations would stay up until he comes home so that he can see how it all looked.



Last night the family held a prayer vigil for Ben, it was very moving.



Each of the children thought of a reason why they love Benjamin, they lit a candle and said a prayer for him.


After the prayers we took a letter of each reason why Benajmin is loved to the hospital and shared it with him.

He especially loved Khensani's reason: "I love Benjamin because he always squeezes me in a tight hug and kisses me on the cheek till I yell!"

Thank you for all the kind messages and please keep on the wonderful prayers.

Ben has to go into theatre again tomorrow to assess the progress and put fresh dressings on. We pray that doctors will see a miracle when they undo those bandages.





Lots of love

Its really hot here at the moment....

Saturday News on Ben
Ben in ICU

(Dec 22, 2007) -



Hello friends

How wonderful you all are! We are so overwelmed by the kindness, compassion and support all our TLC friends have poured out on us in the last few days. We are blessed beyond measure.

Benjamin spent a peaceful 2nd night in ICU. He is being such a brave boy. He is being fed a high protein fluid by nasal gastric tube, he is on a morphine based pain management program and has to go back to theatre on Sunday for further treatment with a product called Bio-Brand, apparently a very effective burns treatment.

When we visit he cannot see us and we can only touch his right hand and his legs so he likes to just listen. He can croak out a little and likes us to sing to him or recite "The owl and the Pussy cat", his favourite nursery rhyme - he joins in a little.

Yesterday the parish priest, father Maurice came and prayed with Benny and he was so happy to join in the "Amens". He has some lovely ladies looking after him - they are so kind and he seems to be quite the celebrity around there.

Our wonderful Volunteer Eric spoke to the hospital on our behalf and they have agreed to allow us to pay once the international funds coming in have been cleared by the bank - so a big thank you to Eric and Cora Muller of Netcare.

To all of you offering help and prayers - words are not enough to convey our gratitude. When we started this ministry and wanted to give every child the best we could, we had no idea how many people would support that vision.

Thank you